Sunday, December 20, 2009

Random thoughts on a cold night

Ever met someone you haven't seen in a long time and thought, 'Man, you really let yourself go...'

Ever wondered what's wrong with yourself because you can't successfully seduce someone?

Ever wondered if you really want what you have or you want what you can't have more?

Ever wondered what you really want to do with your life?

Ever wanted to go trekking in Mongolia?

Ever wondered why it's so goddamn cold and yet you won't turn off the air-conditioner even though you are shivering as you type this?

Ever thought that the question, 'which came first, the chicken or the egg' is equivalent to 'which came first, the woman or the baby'?

Ever wondered if the tendency to complicate life is ingrained or acquired?

Monday, December 14, 2009

I haven't had an inspiring streak in a long time. It's just work, home, drink on weekends lately. Here goes.

So, it's the end of the year and I'm supposed to write a recap of this year's past events. It's been sad, happy, boring, and somewhat life-changing. I've made new friends, and I haven't managed to lose any old ones. That's a very good thing, because with every year we gain, we somehow seem to lose friends for a variety of reasons.

I lost my granma but she will live on with us till we ourselves in turn die. I will tell her story to my children, if I have any, and I will tell them about how great a person she was (and how nobody, EVER, can everevereverever outcook her).

Larry moved back to KL, and as society dictates, the man's career is more important than the woman's (the feminist in me cries bullsheeeeeet you focker). Therefore, I'm expected to follow him to KL. However, facing the facts, there ought to be more chances for me in KL than in Penang. Logically, with or without Larry, I ought to move to KL to get that dream job. Unfortunately, I love Penang, and I'm very much attached to my family. So no KL for the time being. Time will tell. Besides, KL sucks.

But more about the long distance. It's alright, actually. I have my own time, and my own up-to-no-good activities. I see him roughly twice a month, and although it's never enough, it's too expensive to travel any more frequent. We don't do much special when we see each other, besides an occasional outing to the zoo/bird park. I enjoy doing the things that we don't do enough, eg. catch a movie, mall ratting, and playing dota because I miss the times when we used to live in the same state. Point of the matter is, I took for granted when we used to see each other every night, and it's the little things that matter.

I made new friends, and I lately got back to roots with an old friend of mine. I also got a tattoo, and I'm planning to get an extension next month because some random person I saw has the same exact fucking tattoo. Serves me right for getting a design off the web.

My best friend is expecting, and I'll be an uncle next year!

Work's been so far so good, at the least. I'm praying hard for an increment.

So come 31st December, rest assured ladies and gents, unless something malign pops up, Julia Tan will be contentedly raping her beer mug and toasting to the new year.